If yesterday was day 84….today is day 1.
It wasn’t by plan, you know. I didn’t do it on purpose. In fact I had nothing to do with it. When he didn’t respond to my email I went on about my business until I got a call from him.
And he was in town. Two hours of driving. Surprise.
So today’s day 1.
This is it. I admit it. All my friends win. Brunette, coworker, even The Boyfriend. You’re right…I am powerless over The Friend. It affects my ability to think clearly and make rational decisions. In the scheme of things, 84 days isn’t enough to make a new life.
But I don’t know what to do. It’s like I can’t help myself sometimes. I’ve done the usual things. We aren’t Facebook friends, I threw all our pictures away. I am sure that this relationship can never work out. But I am also sure that I’m painfully unable to complete the process and have made several backslides in the past year that have been detrimental to the entire purpose of this blog–moving on and finding love.
So here I am, at the mercy of the internet. I need books, tapes, telephone numbers of your best psychotherapy groups, whatever you think will help me. At this point, I’m ready to 12 step my way back to reality.
I am committed to figuring this thing out once and for all. Bring it on. I need you guys.